DO NOT JUDGE. NO ASSHOLES ALLOWED. THE END. #icurse Almost immediately after my diagnosis of Multiple Sclerosis (MS) I started using marijuana to treat my symptoms and it still continues to this day. Which was a huge issue for me because I was raised by a mother who was addicted to prescription drugs my whole life. On one hand I was saying no to Valium which docs freely wanted to give me, but willing to use illegal drugs to heal. This became a huge issue for many in my family as they say my decision and need to use marijuana as the gateway to be becoming an addict like my mother. I saw it as a saving grace for this not to happen. Because marijuana is illegal most closest to me considered me a drug addict rather than someone holistically trying to live with MS and it's horrific symptoms. #onesmallstep
From the onset of MS becoming my life partner it brought with it what I call "under-skin jumping." Basically it felt like my limbs were jumping around all the time in every direction. As a result of this feeling my body was constantly trying to stop the limbs from 'jumping' and I lived with the feeling of constantly trying to hold them down & in place. My 'jumping' was so severe that I could not do acupuncture because the needles would move so much they would eventually bend from the constant movement. Good times had by all when this happened.
Until I moved to California in 2006 I broke the law and smoked marijuana daily to control these symptoms. Little did I know until recently how much marijuana was really helping in my life beyond 'jumping.' I just learned in the last few months how much marijuana relieved many symptoms related to MS. For 28 years I spoked marijuana almost daily. Everywhere I want and everyone who knew me was aware I used pot as medicine in my life with MS. Whether they agreed or not they knew if I was around there was a chance weed was on my person. #ohitgetswild
As luck would have it following The Wahls Protocol I healed from almost all of my symptoms related to living with MS. The limb jumping slowly but surely left my body and I no longer lived with this 'jumping' sensation. In 2015 I decided to stop smoking pot after the symptoms that I used marijuana to treat were no longer in my life.
Little did I know how much more the use of marijuana was helping.
The end of April I rented a guest house in LA and moved in 2 days before heading to Austin for PaleoFX. Literally I moved in, unpacked my boxes and then quickly proceeded to pack a suitcase to start a month of assorted traveling as PaleoBOSS Lady. So excited I was to head to my 2nd year of PaleoFX! #paleocommunityrocksbigtime
The plane takes off at LAX and all of a sudden an MS symptom I had not known in over 4 years returns and it is the scariest of all: throat rigidity. Yup the mother of all symptoms happens when we reach 'our cruising altitude' and results in a strong charlie horse in my throat. Unable to swallow or stop the throat spams I literally panic realizing I am on a plane, traveling alone and unable to speak to share what is happening to me. My throat is spasming like a mother and I have nothing on my person to help relieve this almost foreign symptom from MS. #damnit
I massage the area, calm my shit and slowly the spasms subsides. I sit in fear for the remainder of the flight especially the landing. Convinced the atmospheric pressure caused the spasm I wonder if landing will bring the same result. Happily it did not and once on the ground in Austin I kissed it. Thankful that the flight reality was not worse and that I am okay.
When I get home I immediately call my doctor who prescribes Baclofen for me to take before and after flights to relieve the spasms. This is such a defeat for me since it took me over 1.5 years to ween off of high doses of Baclofen that I took for years to treat my bodily spasms and was my last MS drug to kick to the curb since becoming a Wahls Warrior. However the scary reality of throat rigidity and 2 upcoming plane rides were enough for me to give in and resume Baclofen in my life. Honestly with each plane ride that I took without issue I was grateful that I had Baclofen back in my 'Bag of Tricks.'
Traveling stops and I wean off the Baclofen but the throat rigidity continues to haunt me. In addition I lose feeling on the left side of my face & the area from my knee to ankle and restless leg starts to come back into my life. I am now not getting on planes or traveling but yet symptoms that were distant memories are coming back and piling on top of one another. I am scared and surprised this is happening. #doubledamnit
What is causing this to happen?
Living a conscious life not much happens that I am not aware of and how it may or may not effect my body. I looked for days at my life since the throat issues came back and what could have caused them if it was not the change in pressure caused by flying. I knew I had just moved and the house became my focus. Sure enough my new landlord had been spraying highly toxic chemicals in the house I moved for roach control (another blog post for this but know I have moved again to a non toxic home without roaches)! The air travel was enough to wake up my throat rigidity and the continued exposure to toxic chemicals created a petri dish for other MS related symptoms to follow.
So I did an experiment.
I smoked weed for 3 days one weekend to see what result if any it would have on my body. The throat jumping stopped immediately and the other symptoms started to slowly go away. They would all be gone for about 2-4 hours after smoking and some would return in a less threatening form. I stopped smoking again for 3 days and all of them returned to their full blown nightmare reality. For the 1st time this BOSS realized how much pot helped MS symptoms beyond 'limb jumping.'
For some reason initially I felt mentally defeated that I started to smoke weed again. I was so proud to have gone off all medications for the treatment of MS. Then I realized this too may pass. It was toxic chemical exposure that caused the symptoms to come back. Weed is the treatment that is helping until my body calms down enough to let go of their death grip on my symptoms. History has shown for me as a Wahls Warrior that these symptoms can leave my body and remain gone as long as my conscious life reality is not effected.
Smoking a little daily to treat the symptoms and it continues to help. My usage and need are getting less and less each day as my toxic load continues to diminish. However I am certain the marijuana will always be in my 'Bag of Tricks.' This medicinal plant has provided me life changing healing for most of my years living with MS and continues to be a much better option than any pill a doc has ever prescribed.
The moral conflict associated with using weed I am over and think that the future continues to look bright for legalization to happen universally in the USA. I hope that many will realize the power to heal both mentally and physically using marijuana holds. I really think it is time for all of us to stop the demonization of pot and can we all just say AMEN TO THE WEED!
We should instead be having this critical eye on all the drugs and drug companies and leave mother nature alone!
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